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Stock and Bonds

Yes. In answer to your question about whether I’m bonded with my baby after 14 months: Yes. Totally. Mostly. And if you want the emotional play-by-play, here it is: Love: Yes. I totally love her. It wasn’t instantaneous, and it didn’t … Continue reading

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Tiers of Joy

Admitting that I don’t know what to write isn’t the best way to up my readership, but what can I tell you? I have no fucking clue what to say. No, I still don’t trust that this is happening. No, … Continue reading

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Therapy is Stupid

It’s been months, and I still can’t say it. I can say, “I’m,” and I can say, “pregnant,” but so far I haven’t managed to say them in sequence. Instead I default to, “I’m 14 weeks.” Or to close friends I … Continue reading

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Prospective Perspective

I have a question. I always swore that I’d never consider egg donation. My reasons were that it’d be creepy, it’d feel false, and it’d be socially confusing. But after years of failed in-vitro treatments, my doctor said that the … Continue reading

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Festival of Lights at the End of the Tunnel

It wasn’t the best Hanukkah for me. Lots of drama that’s not worth getting into, so I won’t, but in between the bouts of mayhem, there was an especially sweet moment. My mother urged me yet again to think about … Continue reading

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Pubic Relations

Today’s conversation with my pussy. Me: So, what? We’re perimenopausal now? Seriously!? We’re only 40! My Pussy: [Inaudible.] Me: No. Not menopause. Don’t say menopause, because first of all, menopause comes later, and second of all, fuck you. My Pussy: [Inaudible.] Me: That’s … Continue reading

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