Tag Archives: Ashtanga

Therapy is Stupid

It’s been months, and I still can’t say it. I can say, “I’m,” and I can say, “pregnant,” but so far I haven’t managed to say them in sequence. Instead I default to, “I’m 14 weeks.” Or to close friends I … Continue reading

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Future Perfect Tense

I’ve always felt there was something eerie about the state of transition, and in trying to put my finger on it, I realized: it’s not transition that I’m experiencing. It’s suspension. Suspension of time. Suspension of truth. Suspension of breath. All by a … Continue reading

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Pro-Choice. Pro-Life.

I discovered a secret to life. The first half of the secret is that “choice yields unhappiness.” The second half of the secret is that “choicelessness yields happiness.” And the third half of the secret is that I’m doing it … Continue reading

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Fall from Grace

My grandmother was a woman of grace. She bore 11 children in a 2-bedroom home, cared for her husband through a decade of Alzheimer’s, and lost her eyesight near the end of her life, and the only time I ever … Continue reading

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My Biological Clock Has One Hand Clapping. Sometimes.

So, I got caught in an undertow of grief the other day. I could try to defend myself by saying that I freaked out because my estrogen level is 2500 instead of the normal 150, but I’d rather just accept the … Continue reading

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How to be Happily Childfree in 10,000 Easy Steps

Originally posted on Life Without Baby:
There are two questions I get asked frequently: How did you come to terms with not having children, and how long did it take? The answer is something akin to “how long is a…

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